reflection

i've been quite busy these past few weeks with work, studies and family. but still, i like it just the way it is. and i'm still adjusting 'new' regime in ramadhan where i usually go to bed at around 11++ pm and had to wake up early to prepare for sahur and to go to work. hmm. although it's really tiring sometimes, i think it really helps me to be more alert and disciplined than before. hehe :) in the non-fasting month, i (sometimes) wake up at aorund 6.30 in the morning and running around the house like nobody's business; preparing to go to work and to prepare breakfast.

but now in the holy month of ramadhan, i feel more calm and more at ease. i don't spend much time thinking of what to eat or when or what is the next meal going to be. i would just prepare what i have in the fridge and be sensible about what and how much i eat. i still remember one of my teacher/ustazah said 'kebanyakan penyakit hati datang dari perut'. now i think i understand better of what it means but this is only from my personal view. i believe when we eat too much, we'd be lazy and in my case, it often results in me being late in performing solat (because i'm too full? and often give excuse like 'tunggu makanan turun' but at the same time----watching tv).

and sometimes, things get worse (during the non-fasting month) when i go out for lunch with my friends. we ALWAYS go to a place called peladang (i'm not sure why) where there are varieties of food there. being a foodie myself, i can't help taking a bit of (almost) everything onto my plate. hmph!! i know it's MY fault but hey, if somebody else is in my shoes, he/she would probably do the same!! (and the food are all tasty too). what i'm trying to say here is I need no to myself each and everytime i feel like tasting or sampling every little things. okay.

there are more things to be discussed here but i have something else to be settled. i'd definitely write more often if i have the time.

okay. to cut things short, i shall be more mindful of this particular matter. heheh. I am thankful i realise this sooner. i really hope this will continue even after the month of ramadhan is over