kenapa la rase mcm ni??

when i first registered for MA programme, i was mentally prepared to be more independent and i told myself to not befriend with ONLY certain people, to befriend everybody or anybody for that matter. so in sem 1, i befriend with (almost) everybody in my class but at the same time, i tried hard not to be too attached to certain group of people. so i usually ended up sitting next to foreign students, well, most of the times. i was okay with that, and actually quite happy being that way. but of course, please dont get me wrong, i do have malay friends from the same programme.

semester ni, knp ntah, aku tibe2 terase nervous nak masuk kelas yg xde kawan2..hmm xsukenye perasaan mcm ni..myb ini effect from too used to be together (adakah wujud phrase sebegini?) in 1st sem. bile dah tibe 2nd sem, aku terase mcm aku mencari cara dan alasan utk berada dalam kelas yg sama (groupwork pun nak sama) dgn makhluk2 ini. not that they are not good for me, i think that they are tooooo good that i can't be on my own dah T_T and i hate that. huhuh. i'm slowly losing my independency.

so i asked ashraf last night, which one yg awk prefer? 1- kelas sama dgan kawan, walaupun subjek xberapa best? or 2- kelas xde kawan, tapi subjek x susah sgt. jawapan ashraf mmg xmengejutkan aku lansung. die dgn cepatnye menjawab, 'mestilah saye pilih kelas ade kawan. kalau susah pun, same2 susah. at least, ada kawan'. oh. ok, i kind of expected that answer from him. so, ok lah. but then he added 'rasenye awk boleh kot amik kelas yg xde kawan. sbb awk pun selalu study sendiri'.

yeah right. betul jugak. time nak dekat final or ape2 test pun mmg selalunye aku kene study sendiri. satu, sebab sayang cuti. dua, sbb terlalu cuak sampai xnak pandang org lain. heheh. tapi, xbest jugak kan kalau pegi kelas, 14minggu, tapi xde kawan. but wait, kan boleh make new friends? hmm..decision..decision..

petang ni akan pergi kelas genre studies. quite an unpopular class. setakat yg aku daftar tadi, hanya ada 12 students..erkk..so it might be a small class, and lecturer akan kenal semua org?? double erkkk :p ok lah, ape2 pun, kite tgk dulu kelas tu cmane kan. kalau ok, alhmadulillah, proceed je laa. kalau tak, terpaksa la pandai2 aku carik kelas lain.